Tag: #grow

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Digging for Courage: Feeling the Suck

Feeling shitty, but treating myself well. A couple years ago I would have been making another pot of coffee and thinking about the IPA in the fridge.
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Today, I’m feeling the discomforts of a body struggling to find activity; another ugly, rainy sky; a son’s internal battle with a new love in my life; and the confusing chaos outside my door.
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It sucks, but I’m feeling it. No more self medication, no more self hate, and no more projection of pain into blame.

God bless and thank you for reading,
Jason

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Delaware Fun-A-Day 25: In Space No One Can Hear You Spring

Tried to build a spaceship and got a space flower.

I grew up on #Lego space sets. Grey, white, and blue were my primary colors. The introduction of a line of black ships with yellow highlights was a thrill, but my tastes were already changing. I had completely shifted to comic books by the time the first green space suit showed up.

Now that I’m building again with my sons, I’m continually drawn to these “new” colors. I’ve never been talented with color choice and coordination. I love pushing into that arena, trying out combinations and playing with the craziest colors. The colors inspire new shapes and designs, testing my building skills.

My mind is still out there. Star Trek, Farscape, 2001: A Space Odyssey, Blade Runner, The Fifth Element, Enemy Mine, and Alien permeate my creativity. It’s the landscape in which I explore my own mind.

God bless and thank you for reading,

Jason