Embrace Your Freedom

In the weeks after Mary’s death I wrote about how music had lost its power over me.

I was living a robotic existence. It was too too risky to feel anything at all. I had intuitions about the importance of love, but I wasn’t ready to experience it.

The road trip we embarked on started with a weekend of music that would break me out of the armor I had built.

As Reverend Peyton’s Big Damn Band tore through “Lay Your Burden Down,” I had my son on my shoulders, my feet in the mud, and tears framing the smile on my face. Mary and I had danced in front of them on a special date weekend. All the emotions I hadn’t let myself feel poured forth. I let myself be free to feel.

Music touches me even deeper now. Everything does. Freedom means being able to explore further, especially within.

God bless and thank you for reading,

Jason

Love and Trust and Family and Friends

In the last few days I’ve connected with friends and family and built on existing love and trust. I’ve found new friends in which to trust and build relationships. I’ve explored my trust in God and found that he is working in my life in remarkable, unexpected ways. In trusting Him I have been more able to let events unfold before me and let my place in them occur without pushing or prodding with my own desires. I’ve started to let go of my drive to control and instead listen and find the path meant for me. God has been very good to me. I pray that I can keep the wisdom to continue listening.

God bless,
Jason