I called it a dance yesterday. I didn’t even half-lament the circumstances that got me here. I was fully enjoying the absurdities and discoveries. And then I found myself being cruel. I didn’t exactly plan it, but I didn’t surprise myself either. I made a public show with an attractive female friend in front of an ex-lover. To what effect? Was I trying to hurt someone I love? It certainly didn’t come from a place of love or compassion. At best it was game-playing, an attitude I had denounced not 10 minutes previous.
I consciously chose to do the wrong thing. I don’t know how to make that right.
God bless and thank you for reading,
Jason