After a tough time in my gi matches, I decided to not compete in no gi (attire closer to wrestling gear).
It was not easy and it’s hard for me to decide how much fear was involved. I’m less confident in no gi and the wait between the divisions is intimidating for a body that likes to stay active.
However, I poured a lot into my gi matches. I deadlocked with two competitors (both resulting in losses by decision) ten years my junior and lost on points to another, but went each five-minute round without being forced to submit.
My arm was aching and didn’t have a clear reason to risk injury.
I suppose reason and fear shook hands on the deal.
Aside from all the doubt, I am happy I was home to watch movies with my boys and put them to bed. My thirteen-year-old wanted to snuggle and there may not be too many more nights like that.