Why Silence Me?

I was banned from Delaware’s largest homeschool group on Facebook. I wasn’t given an explanation. I haven’t posted there in many months, although the last I checked, I had more than 700 posts and comments over nearly a decade as a member and two years as an administrator.

Recently, I have only added encouraging or resource-sharing comments.

As an invested member of the Delaware homeschool network, I have directed my online efforts toward bolstering and growing my home education community.

In 2020 there was a shift in leadership and direction. I felt the strain as the mission of the group became less clear to me. Even so, I felt it important to direct new homeschoolers to this useful place: Delaware’s Best Source of Homeschool Information.

A year later, they chose to enforce gubernatorial dictates meant for K-12 facilities for ALL events posted on their page. I posted openly against this new policy, citing that home educators in Delaware do not have to follow the same rules as K-12 facilities. Many of us are doing this because we see K-12 policies as contrary to the wellbeing of our children.

They deleted my post.

A month later they changed the policy, yet my post remained deleted: Support for All New Homeschoolers.

I knew many people who left the group after that. I decided to stay because I felt I had a lot to share with the community. I believe my track record of “Liked” comments there lends some credence to that statement.

I don’t quite know how to feel about the ban. I knew I wasn’t welcome by some, but that was personal drama that I didn’t let get in the way of helping families who needed it.

But I’ve got a visceral reaction to being silenced without explanation. I know others will go quietly and that is unjust. I’m going to pray, then sleep on the dilemma.

Alex Berenson’s Unreported Truths

The individuals and organizations who have coerced others into admitting themselves into a novel vaccine trial must not be forgotten.

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Florida tells young men to avoid mRNA Covid shots

Florida’s Surgeon General, Dr. Joseph Ladopo, yesterday warned men aged 18-39 not to take Covid vaccines.

On Sep. 30, Norway effectively discontinued further booster shots for almost everyone under 65.

The worldwide flight from mRNA shots continues

Now Australia has essentially ended its Covid vaccination program for healthy adults under 50 – and effectively banned the shots for people under 30, unless they have severe chronic illnesses.

Denmark ENDS Covid vaccinations for almost everyone under 50

Denmark did not explicitly say the risks of mRNA jabs now outweigh their benefits for healthy people under 50.

But that view is implicit in the announcement, which does not merely discourage but actually bans shots for those people, even though Denmark expects “a large wave of [Covid] infection” in the next few months.

The first real evidence mRNA shots RAISE the risk of Covid hospitalization and death over time

Based on one statistical analysis vaccinated people had a HIGHER risk of death or hospitalization from Covid roughly a year after receiving their second dose.

Six recent “Covid” deaths, per the Milwaukee coroner’s office

Which raises a somewhat unpleasant question: if Covid is no longer killing anyone who wasn’t at death’s door, why is overall excess mortality so high across the heavily mRNA vaccinated countries?

Vaccinated English adults under 60 are dying at twice the rate of unvaccinated people the same age

Vaccinated people under 60 are twice as likely to die as unvaccinated people. And overall deaths in Britain are running well above normal.

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Soccer and Food and Gratitude

If I had known I would eat so well, I would have joined the Spanish leagues a lot sooner.

It’s a warm and welcoming atmosphere that’s also as passionate and performance demanding as I am.

I’m blessed to have made the connections that led me here. I’m blessed to have been given a shot in a league with no other white guys. I’m blessed to be playing with mostly younger players. I’m blessed to have inherited soccer blood from my grandfather.

I thank God for all these blessings.

365 Devotionals: The Golden Rule

“Do to others what you would want them to do to you.”
-Luke 6:31

One of the best quotes of parenting advice I know goes something like, “Treat your own children as you would your best friend’s children.”

I have a lot of children in my life. I may do the most for my own, but I also treat them the worst.

I’m getting better. I’m treating myself more kindly. It gives me the capacity to treat my sons more lovingly.

That’s the forgotten observation of the verse from Luke. Others often treat us better than we treat ourselves. Loved ones, and even strangers, will forgive us and extend us grace for indiscretions that keep us up at night.

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The Guys

We’re an unusual bunch. Home-educating dads aren’t often seen in the wild. They tend to work long hours and jealously guard their time with their families.

Our weekly meetup group has attracted a larger contingent of dads as educational facilitators than I have seen elsewhere. We may be growing as a demographic, or the fact that a dad cofounded this particular group may be a significant factor.

There are more than four of us, but a friend caught this moment today and it is a telling sample. Each of us come from a different perspective and background. We live in different ways, but share a passion for preparing our sons (seven boys among us) to be men.

I’m blessed to have these men in my life.

365 Devotionals: Offer Accepted

To our God and Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
-Philippians 4:20 RSV

When I asked to be removed from church emails about children’s activities that required masks and pushed untested vaccines, I got the following response:

Hi Jason,

We’ll be happy to remove you from this list. Do you also wish to be removed from all church lists including the membership list?

I’m glad you’ve found a church that meets your needs and I will reiterate from my last email that you and the boys will certainly always be welcome to come and visit Mary any time you want. Simply give me a call and I’ll be here to let you in.

To be sure, I used strong language in condemning these policies and mentioned that Iron Faith Fellowship had accepted my entire family without care for our personal, and private, health choices.

I was shocked to receive an enthusiastic offer to remove my family from the church rolls. I’ve been unable to find a response for months.

Before they closed their doors to worshippers, we had spent many hours per week serving and celebrating in that building. The very week before Two-Weeks-To-Flatten-The-Curve, my sons and I slept at the church while homeless families found shelter, hospitality, and meals under the same roof. My wife’s cremains are at rest there and I haven’t visited her in years. The Griefshare meetings that may have saved my life before Lockdown were cancelled when the whole world was grieving.

They are happy to see us go. It’s hard to read that again.

My rational mind understands that we have found better places to worship and more loving communities to embrace us. I haven’t gotten one note I can think of from our *former* church brothers and sisters wondering where we have been. I can understand, but my heart continues to hurt.

I will accept their offer today. Maybe I’ll feel comfortable visiting Mary once I’m officially an outsider. Maybe it’ll hurt less once I don’t receive the email reminders from that committee or volunteer group.

Today I renew my relationship with God. A relationship that requires no building, nor pastor, to mediate it.

To our God and Father be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

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365 Devotionals: Trusting

Have no anxiety about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
-Philippians 4:6 RSV

And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.
-Philippians 4:19 RSV

I take comfort in these words from Paul to the church at Philippi. He was in prison and writing in a celebratory tone of abundance. Hope and comfort. Comfort that God can engender this powerful positivity and hope that I can stay with the Holy Spirit in dark times.

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365 Devotionals: Content

Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have.
-Philippians 4:11 NLT

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From Strength for Today: “Paul had made huge mistakes and caused tremendous pain that scarred his past, but his life changed dramatically when he met Jesus. He began to help others and share himself vulnerably. Instead of bullying his way to victory, he would sometimes go hungry. Instead of being celebrated, he would sometimes suffer loss.”

I’m no Paul (I’ve never gone hungry for one), but I changed when I met Jesus in my heart. Being stubborn, that change continues to be slow. My wife didn’t a chance to see the changes. She passed away a few short months after we were Baptized. She seemed to know so much. I wonder if she saw the changes beginning. She always saw potential in me that I thought I had squandered in my scarred past.

Contentment is tricky. I love myself for what I have become and I love the greater self yet to be revealed.

I love that my boys have been here to see me grow in God’s love. I hope my mistakes can serve as guardrails for their own journeys and that they understand that none of this would have been possible before I saw myself as a child of God.

Inconsistent Improvement

I’m no good at routine. I am good at returning to the habits that have helped me grow in recent years.

Yoga, Wim Hof Method breathing, an unprocessed diet, soccer, jiu-jitsu, prayer, and intentional time with loved ones were all incorporated into my week. Nothing was consistent and I stumbled through most of the practices. But I did practice.

Each sunrise offers a new chance to return to positive behaviors and find new ones to practice.