Category: The Healing Journey

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Don’t Be Surprised By The Crazy

People are upset at the arbitrary and confusing nature of the regulations. For example, in County-run adult soccer we are not allowed to head the ball and only the goal keeper is allowed in the goal box at any time. Otherwise, throw-ins are permitted, we are allowed to chest the ball directly under our noses, and we can crash into one another anywhere else on the field.

These are small, absurd examples, but these types of rules are making it very difficult for business owners in industries that government regulators don’t understand (i.e., all industries) to operate within the law.

Absurd restrictions inspire absurd reactions.

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Friday Fishin’

The Zerbey Boys, six years ago.

Delaware Nature Society has been hosting our adventures for a long time.

I started with a wagon, wheeling the boys around the marsh pond at DuPont Environmental Education Center (DEEC). I learned about their dip-netting program and almost as soon as my younger could walk, he was knee deep in muck.

Today Isaac wraps up a week of camp at DEEC.

We’re blessed to have places that go deep into our memory. Places where the seeds of unschooling were planted.

God bless you and thank you for reading, I appreciate you,

Jason

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Sweat Diversity

This continues to be an unexpected life.

Only a few months ago I was saying, “I’ve got soccer and I love yoga, I’ll leave the jiu-jitsu to my boys.” I also said I was done with managing a soccer team.

This week I managed an adult team to two wins, attended two yoga classes, and had my first two jiu-jitsu training sessions. And it’s only Thursday.

At 41, I feel at the top of my game. I start each day with intentional Wim Hof Breathing and all my showers end with, at least, a couple minutes of cold therapy.

The Lockdown has accelerated my desire to be healthier and stronger. It cleared away distractions and revealed how much poison is in our bodies, minds, and souls.

I’m clearing away those toxins with a lot of inner work and a lot more sweat.

God bless you and thank you for reading, I appreciate you,

Jason

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Gratitude: Delaware Nature Society

Lockdown coverage continually forgets the single parents and those who have been isolated from their support systems.

I am deeply thankful for Delaware Nature Society’s grounds, staff, and summer camps.

My sons love the outdoors and it seems more critical than ever that they get sunshine and fresh air. They also need a break from their dad.

My younger son is biking, hiking, and explorinv the Wilmington Riverfront from the Dupont Environmental Education Center this week and loving it. Next week, my older will hone his targeting skills at Ashland Nature Center.

These months of reduced support have been wearing on us and I’m grateful for this opportunity to provide my sons a little more freedom.

God bless and thank you for reading, I appreciate you,

Jason

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FFT: Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu

Tired. And kind of confused. I hardly knew what happened in my first class at Elevated Studios in Wilmington, Delaware. It took a conversation with my son, who had watched, to start to understand that I might have learned a couple things.

I’ve been watching my sons train and compete for five years. We’ve visited around a half dozen other studios and there’s no where else I’d rather be.

During the Lockdown I’ve been preaching self improvement, immune boosting, and holistic strengthening of mind, body, and soul. The opportunity to train with some of the best in the art seemed too much for me to pass on.

It was more uncomfortable than I expected, and in different ways. I was nervous to watch the drills and copy them, the moves are intricate. But that wasn’t so bad. It was the matches. Five five-minute rounds. I lasted four matches. I had no idea what I was doing. I just didn’t want to look like a fool. I expended energy all over the place. I was one degree away from “flailing.”

But what else could be expected? Brené Brown’s phrase, Fucking First Time (FFT) came to mind. I had been more scared about this first class than anything I can remember since bungee jumping over a canyon in New Zealand 20 years ago. Just like the jump, I did it. I knew what the fear meant. I knew that that’s where I needed to go.

I can feel myself pushing forward already. I want to participate in all five matches. I want to prepare myself for that, to be ready to push further than I did today.

It’s an exciting shift in my life, to be exploring and testing the world as a habit. More of an anti-habit, stronger in discomfort.

God bless and thank you for reading, I appreciate you,

Jason

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Entirely Enchanted

This moment was the highlight of a wonderous day at Winterthur. After a week of grumbly adulthood, I needed to let the little boy inside me run about some.

And there he was. Toad sitting outside his house. I was back in a rocking chair, reading Adventures of Frog and Toad to my baby sons. Then further back, to my mother reading The Wind in the Willows to me. That was the first glimpse of my motherland, England. The hovels and houses and riverside adventures of those stories filled me with a love for that country.

Winterthur brings me back there, a wild, natural, cared for land full of color and life.

This was the first time we had seen Enchanted Woods in months. The Lockdown kept us from so many important places. The disappointment of seeing the Faerie Cottage blocked off was dissipated by the wonderful attention that went into decorating it to once again fill our imaginations.

The magic of the place carried with us as we explored further. We were startled and amazed when we interrupted a snake that had brought its riparian lunch onto the rocks. A catbird demanded that I appreciate it for a moment. We spotted a green frog that was much more camoflaged than the photo reveals. We found turtles sunbathing and snappers lurking in muddy water like sea monsters.

And we smiled.

Three or four hours were lost to the quiet and constant parade of deer, chipmunks, fish, song birds, geese, and groundhogs.

I had asked God for a reset. I didn’t know how to come down from the flight-or-fight fever of the previous week, so I got humble and just asked.

He provided.

God bless and thank you for reading, I appreciate you,

Jason

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Back to my Self in the Morning Sun

I fed an angry voice this week.

I got tired. I got frustrated. I saw a lie in the world and I lashed out at it. Of course, the lie took up arms and the battle commenced. I took it all personally.

I liked it. That particularly angry little monster has been waiting to say something nasty. It’s the fighting Spirit in me that has served me well, but becomes cruel when fed with anger.

Unable to accept the things I have no power over, I raged and hurt.

It was quite a pit. I dove in with my fists clenched, a sneering smile ready for the mud and the blood.

Then I saw friends. I was able to embrace the people who lovingly support me. I remembered how blessed I am, that I can use that fighting Spirit in love.

I needed that personal contact to shake me out of my own head, where I was plotting with that Spirit and feeding the anger.

It’s no fun climbing out of the pit, knowing that Spirit still exists, knowing I need it, knowing I need to master and incorporate it and feed it with love and care.

Truth isn’t meant to be fun. It’s meant to knock you sideways and kill the lies you tell yourself. The phoenix burn is painful and necessary for rebirth.

God bless and thank you for reading, I appreciate you,

Jason

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Healthy Child Contracts Influenza in School, Dies Horrible Death

New rule: When discussing a deadly virus, you may not compare it to other deadly viruses.

Please elaborate on how the deadly nature of the flu is baseless. Explain to me how those percentages aren’t important to the lives it destroys. Explain how headlines make one death more important than another.

Death doesn’t give a shit whether I believe in it or approve of it, it is coming. It ain’t new. It ain’t novel. Our inability as a society to accept death as an integral component of existence has us denying the nature of physical reality.


Denying truth (i.e. reality) is a lie. We’re living this lie that we can extend physical life forever and it’s costing us dearly.


But I can play the game too: What percentage of spouses dead from influenza are you okay with?


What percentage of children are you okay with locking in cages all day while influenza predictably spreads and kills in schools every year?


These are not questions, they are rhetorical weapons. If you live by that sword, you will die by that sword.

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Oh, She’s “Just Curious”

“I’m just curious what percentage of dead children works for you.”

Just curious? That’s lovely, I’m a big fan of curiosity. Curiosity is the best start towards truth.

Life is tragic and people die and none of it is fair. I choose to act in the world, as broken and dangerous as it is, and want to use accurate data to assess the risk I’m willing to accept for myself and my sons.

I believe we would have healthier children without State-run education. The State wants complicit, sedentary children on mind-numbing psychotropics and fattening Government meals. That’s what’s killing our children’s bodies, minds, and souls.

I’m curious how doped up and obese our society wants children.

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